Mods, feel free to move this if it's in the wrong forum, but it seemed relevant.
I've been a leftist most of my life. I've never been a lifestyle anarchist. My politics are / were more of the old left variety. Communist Party in the 30s / early Wobs / SPA kind of stuff. Over the last year I've sort of checked out. There's a sort of feedback loop where I think we're all doomed and that there's not enough time and that agitating for the right kind of mass action is just impossible on that sort of time scale.
Egypt and OWS were originally very inspiring to me, but ultimately went nowhere. On the one hand, you have these kinds of mass movements that get redirected behind some bourgeois political initiative. On the other hand, you have the legions of "social justice" types with their emphasis on lifestyle, personal ethics and group therapy. Neither appeals to me very much, though the former certainly has more merits than the latter.
This is all sort of a roundabout way of saying: Has anyone else just sort of given up? Am I the only one who is more interested in making his own limited life on this earth as comfortable as possible and doesn't feel bad about it or make apologies about it?
Note that I'm not really interested in debating the point. People either get what I'm on about or they don't. If you're on some other trip, that's fine. I'm mostly just looking to discuss with other burnt out types why they became disillusioned and when and how it's changed their lives.
For my own part, I can't say that I've ever been happier or more content. There's a certain comfort that comes with giving yourself over to being completely fucked in the long run. "If AIDS don't get you then the warheads will."